empty

this is what my brain is like as i’m typing this piece. empty. once again i find myself staring at my pc screen for too many long hours.. without having typed a coherent sentence. it’s not that i don’t have anything to write about. in fact, i have quite a number of topics lined up. but the words just won’t come :(

fatigue.. sleep deprivation.. overly-hectic skeds and piles of unfinished work (ack!! the deadlines!!!) all contribute to my current condition. but after fruitless hours in front of my computer, i finally decided to just write about what i’m experiencing - emptiness :p

for me, not being able to direct my thoughts is a very frightening experience. i’m used to planning my day.. almost to the point of OC-ness. i want to be sure of things - where i’ll be going, what i’ll be doing at what time, how i’ll go to a certain place, etc. and i’m used to having *lots* of ideas in my head. and i mean *lots* hahaha (for those not in the know, i’m the multitasking queen :p) so tonight, as i type down these words.. i feel.. impatient.

but being empty is not always a bad thing. because, oftentimes, “one has to empty himself before he can be filled” and there are moments when we simply have to wait.. to rest.. to “do nothing”.. so that we can accomplish what we have been tasked to do :)

this easter season presents us with christianity’s most powerful symbol of hope: the empty tomb. in the cross, we have proof of god’s tremendous love for us. but in his empty tomb, we have the hope of both salvation and resurrection :)

brothers and sisters, we all have burdens. we have our plans.. we have our own ideas of how things should be. but we do not simply stop at laying our cares before the foot of the cross. because our true redemption.. our true hope comes from emptying ourselves to receive god’s guidance and lordship over our hearts and minds :)

may he bring you great joy and peace.. and may you continue to trust in his plan for your life!

a blessed easter season to everyone :)